Here I am again so random thought before I start...why is it that when you buy gummi worms there are always more red than green? I hate that...Anyways I started a new job, I love it so far! I already like a guy there which sucks because he is not interested in me, what else is new? Anyways I am so busy working two jobs, but I love it


More later...

1. Are you in love?
i don't know, it's complicated...

2. Do you hate more then 3 people?
No just 2

3. How many houses have you lived in?
5 houses, 5 apartments,

4. What is your favorite candy?
Gummi worms

5. What are your favorite shoes?
flipflops, or sketchers

6. Have you ever tripped someone?
Not that I can remember

7. Favorite summer trip this year?
Soooo many to pick, Idaho twice, Nevada, Roseburg, Seattle twice, but fav one prob has to be going to seattle to see my team Boston play the mariners

8. do you own a britney spears cd?
nope

10. Have you ever thrown up in public?
nope

11. Name someone that's ALWAYS on your mind.
The guy I want but can't have

12. What is your favorite music genre?
country, rock, rap, hip hop, all kinds

13. What is your sign?
Gemeni

14. What time were you born?
12:13AM

15. Do you like beer?
Some beers

16. Have you ever made a prank call?
In like junior high school

17. What is the most embarrassing CD you own?
nsync

18. Are you sarcastic?
A majotity of the time

19. What is your favorite color?
Blue

20. How many watches do you own?
1

21. Summer or Winter?
Summer

22. Spring or fall?
Spring-----BASEBALL

23. What is your favorite color to wear?
Blue, but I wear lots of colors

24. Pepsi or Sprite?
Sprite considering I am allergic to Pepsi

25. what color is your dad's hair?
Grey and brown

26. Wheres your second home??
My grandmas house

27. Have you ever slapped someone?
Yeah

28. Have you ever had a cavity?
no

29. How many lights are in your bedroom?
3

30. How many video games do you own?
7

31. What was your first pet?
Dog

32. Have you ever had braces?
no

33. Do looks matter?
A little

34. Do you use Chapstick?
Yes

36. American Eagle or Abercrombie?
American Eagle

37. Are you too forgiving?
Can be

38. How many children do you want?
1boy 1girl

39. Do you own something from Hot Topic?
Can't think of what

40. What is your favorite breakfast?
Biscits and Gravy

41. Do you own a gun?
no way

42. What was the last thing you ate?
A Salad

43. When was the last time you cried?
A few days ago

44. What did you do 3 nights ago?
I was at the Boston game

45. When was the last time you went to Olive Garden?
March

46. Have you ever called your teacher mom or dad?
no

48. What are your nicknames?
Kris, Kridget

49. Do you know anyone named Bertha?
No

50. Have you ever been to Kentucky?
No

51. Do you own something from Banana Republic?
No

52. Are you thinking about somebody right now?
Yes

53. Have you ever called someone Boo?
no

54. Do you smoke?
no

55. Do you own a diamond ring?
no

56. Are you happy with your life right now?
Most of it

57. do you dye your hair?
Rarely

58. Does anyone like you?
I don't know of anyone

59. Who's your best friend?
My mom

60. What were you doing May of 1996?
Moving

61. Do you own a Backstreet Boys CD?
Nope

62. McDonald's or Wendy's?
I can tolerate either

63. Do you like your self?
Now I do

64. Are you closer to your mother or father?
My mom

65. Favorite feature(s) of the opposite sex?
Eyes, Hands, smile,

66. Are you afraid of the dark?
not anymore

67. Have you ever eaten paste?
not that I remember

68. Do you have a webcam?
somewhere

69. Have you ever stripped? for money??
Nope

70. What are you looking forward to the most this week?
My new job

I am back! Are you surprised? I am! So I had so much fun at my cousins house. We went to the fair and also to the lake and to a movie we had so much fun. I just got back from Idaho on Sunday. I had a great time...I love to travel! Went to the water park I will post some pics of that soon if I can, also pics of the Luau I went to...


Survey I got from Octob3rmoonchild...


001) What time are you starting this?: 1:53pm
002) Name?: Kristina Marie
003) Date of birth?: June, 9th 1983
004) Sex?: Female
005) Height?: 5'7
006) Eye color?: Hazel
007) Weight?: 157 and shrinking...YAY
008) Location?: Beaverton, Oregon
009) Where were you born?: Santa Clara, California
012) Do you have crush on someone?: Yes
013) Do you have a bf/gf?: No
016) What are you wearing right now?: Jeans and a tee-shirt
017) Would you have sex before marriage?: Been there done that
018) Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers?: Not really
019) Are you a virgin?: No
020) Do you smoke?: No
021) Do you drink?: Yes sometimes
022) Are you ghetto?: No way
023) Are you a player?: Hell no
024) What are your favorite colors?: Blue, Red, Green
025) What is your favorite animal?: Dogs
026) Do you have any birthmarks?: Nope
027) Have you ever gotten your ass kicked?: No
028) Who are your best friends?: My mom
029) Have you ever beat someone up?: No
030) Who do you talk to most on the phone?: My grandma
031) Have you ever been slapped?: Yes
032) Do you get online a lot?: Yeah
033) Are you shy or outgoing?: Depends on the people I am around
034) Do you shower?: Everyday
035) Do you hate school?: Mostly yes
036) Do you have a social life?: Sometimes
037) How easily do you trust people? Easy at first
038) Have you ever lied to your bestfriends?: Not about anything important
039) Do you have a secret people would be surprised knowing?: Not people that know me
040) Would you ever sky dive?: No thanks
041) Do you like to dance?: Yeah
what happened to all these ?'s??????????
068) Have you ever been out of state?: Yes
069) Do you like to travel?: Duh
071) Have you ever been suspended from school?: No
071) Do you want to get out of your hometown? Sometimes but I travel enough
072) Are you spoiled?: Yes I think so
073) Are you a brat?: When it comes to some things.
074) Have you ever been dumped?: Does rejected count?
075) Have you ever gotten high?: hmmmm once
076) What's your favorite drink?: Water, Iced tea, Diet A&W, Gatorade
077) Do you like Snapple?: Its ok, I never drink it though
078) Do you drink a lot of water?: Everyday
079) What toothpaste do you use?: Colgate
080) Do you have a cell phone or pager?: Cell
081) Do you have a curfew?: No
082) Who do you look up to?: My mom and my family.
083) Are you a role model?: To some people
085) What name brand do you wear the most?: Old Navy
086) What kind of jewelry do you wear?: Nike bands, earings and a charm bracelet, and sometimes necklaces
087) What do you have pierced?: Ears
088) What do you want pierced?: Nothing else
089) Do you like taking pictures?: Used to
090) Do you like getting your picture taken?: Sometimes
091) Do you have a tan?: For right now
092) Do you get annoyed easily?: With some things
093) Have you ever started a rumor?: Not that I remember
094) Do you have your own phone/phone line?: Cell phone
095) Do you have your own pool?: Not anymore
096) Do you have any siblings?: One sister
097) Do you prefer boxers or briefs?: Boxers mostly but boxer briefs can be good on some guys
098) Have you ever been played?: Yes
099) Have you ever played anyone? No
100) Do you get along with your parents?: Most of the time yeah
102) How do you vent your anger?: I don't really
103) Have you ever ran away?: Yes
104) Have you ever been fired from a job?: No
105) Do you even have a job?: 2
106) Do you daydream a lot?: Yeah
107) Do you have a lot of exes?: No
108) Do you run your mouth?: Not very often
109) What do you want a tattoo of? Nothing
110) What do you have a tattoo of?: Again...nothing
111) What are your favorite flowers?: Gerba Daisies
113) What does your most recent crush look like?: He is pretty good looking but thats not the important thing, hes smart, funny, really nice, and just has a great personality...
114) Have you ever been bitched out?: Yes
115) When was the last time you bitched someone out?: I try not to do that
116) Are you rude?: I really try not to be but I have been
117) last compliment you received: How great I looked
118) Do you like getting dirty? Hmmm...depends on what you mean
119) Is your bellybutton an innie or outie?: Innie
120) Are you flexible?: Yes
121) What is your heritage?: American and other than that no clue
122) What is your lucky number?: Three
123) What does your hair look like right now?: Short dark brown with blonde and light brown highlights
124) Could you ever be a vegetarian?: No
125) When was your last real heartbreak?: Right now its kind of ongoing
126) Describe your looks?: 5'7,Short dark brown with blonde and light brown highlights, hazel eyes, tan right now,
127) If you had to completely dye your hair it'd be what color?: Red
128) Would you ever date someone younger than you?: I have before but would perfer someone my age now though
129) Would you ever date someone older than you?: Yes but not much
130) When was the last time you were drunk?: Saturday night
131) When was the last time you went on a date?: Its been a little while
132) Would you rather give or receive oral sex?: Never recieved it, but I don't mind giving it.
133) Have you ever given?: Yes
134) Have you ever received?: No
135) Have you ever had an eating disorder?: No
136) Do you have one now?: No
137) How many rings until you answer the phone?: As soon as I can
138) Have you ever been skinnydipping?: Once
140) Do you look more like your mother or father?: My mom
141) Do you cry a lot?: Sometimes
142) Do you ever cry to get your way?: No
143) If you had to amputate one limb, what would it be?: My left arm
144) What phrase do you use most when on the phone?: Yeah
145) Are you the romantic type?: Sometimes
146) Have you ever been chased by cops?: No
147) What do you like most about your body?: My eyes, Hair,
148) What do you like least about your body?: My legs
150) When was the last time you threw up?: I can't even remember
151) In the opposite sex, do you prefer blondes or brunettes?: Blondish
152) What do the shoes you last wore look like?: My brown sandals
153) Do you ever wear shirts to show your belly?: Nope
154) What about cleavage?: Sometimes
155) Is your best friend a virgin?: No
156) Have you ever fucked someone up?: Not that I know of
157) Have you ever been fucked up?: Yes
158) What color are your underwear right now?: Red, green, and pink
159) What theme does your room have?: Tropical
160) What size shoe do you wear? 10 or 11
161) What jewelry are you wearing now?: My charm bracelet and my white bracelet and my earings
162) What is your screen name on AIM?: Basewatcher01
163) Would you pick a wedgie in public?: No
164) How are you feeling right now?: Tired but not sleepy, a little mad and wishing I could talk to a certain someone
165) When was the last time you were at a party?: Saturday
166) Have you ever given a lapdance?: Once
167) What do you sleep in?: Tank top and pajama pants
168) Has there ever been a rumor spread about you?: Not that I know of
169)What is one of your bad qualities?: I am too nice and care about people too much..It is a bad thing sometimes
170) What is one of your good qualities?: Friendly, always help anyone that needs it, good listner,
171) Would you marry for money?: No
172) What do you drive?: 2003 navy blue Jetta! I am so proud
173) Have you ever given or received roadhead? Yes
174) Are you more of a mama or daddy's child?: Mommys girl
175) When was the last time you cried in school?: Can't remember
176) Do you wear Chucks?: no
177) For two million dollars, would you pose for Playboy?: for 2 mill? Yeah but who would wanna see it?
178) What time are you finishing this? 2:34pm

Hey! I just realized that I havent written since June. That is way too long. So I had the best time ever at the Dierks concert, Dierks is soooooo amazing. We had to leave early and I didnt get to see him sing one of my favorite songs, Because the drunk people were really bothering me. They were spilling beer all over us and I was tied because I worked 3am to 9 that day and it was like 930 at night and I was getting tired. I had a great time tho, we didnt like the hotel we had booked at first so we cancelled it and went to a different one. It was so fun, Since then I have been to my sisters house a few times since then and that was fun. Friday I went to Roseburg to stay with my cousin Lisa and her husband Jeff and thier kids, I drove right after work and I was so ready to be there I was getting tired. I promise more later...Time for dinner.

Wow I impress myself two days in a row...So whats been up? Well work and work and I went to Nevada and Idaho for my birthday! I had so much fun. I needed it. This friday I am going to a Dierks Bentley concert with my mom and we are staying in Euegene...I am excited I need that too...I haven't been to the gym yet today tho and need to go really soon...Everyday really helps...Anyways I am in a constant state of cheerfulness lately...I am thinking I don't really care anymore...Which is really good...Time seems to be going by pretty fast lately. A good thing I would say...My dads been gone so long now I forget what its like to have him here. I am thinking hes not coming back...And maybe that is ok. If it makes him happy then thats good.

Moving on...

I decided it has been WAY too long since I have been here...So here I am...Well I can't remember what I wrote last...it's work and thats about it right now. I joined a gym and I have been everyday since...not yet today but I will!!!!

15 Reason to Date a Baseball Player.....

1. They have great hands
2. They are used to scoring no matter what base they are on
3. They have tremendous endurance
4. They always use a glove
5. They don't stop until the job is done, and there is always extra innings
6. They never strike out
7. They like to touch every base carefully.
8. They don't mind diving face first into the grass
9. They take the extra base if they can get it
10. They slide into home really hard
11. They use thier big stick
12. They think that practice makes perfect.
13. Extra-innings aren't a problem. Neither are double-headers.
14. They love laying out and getting dirty
15. They are fucking hot!

*I need to update more..my goal for now is once a week!*

Hey! So I have been writing a lot about confusion and well my confusion is getting better, meaning...I am less confused now. I had a good weekend...I really don't know how to describe it right now so I will later. Just saying I am less confused.

I am so so confused...So my last entery was about this guy...Saturday night I prayed and asked God to show me a sign if I am meant to have this guy on my mind then let the thoughts stay here and if I am not meant to be thinking about him then please make the thoughts go away. And I really asked him to show me a sign, something.I asked if I didn't see him on Sunday then I would know that I am not meant to think about him. and at first I didn't see him on Sunday and I was feeling a sense of peace. Then I did see him. So last night I prayed again for pretty much the same thing...except the seeing him part. I really prayed and prayed...Then today so far he has been ALL I am thinking about. Normally I can get through work just fine and not really have my mind on him but today at work he was ALL I was thinking about...I even kept picturing him in my mind...So the frequency of the thoughts are increasing all the time...I mean I don't even know this guy...I mean I know who he is, his name, and all that stuff I have been around him for about 3 years now, but I haven't really talked to him all that much...I mean we aren't really even aquantinces either. Saturday he was standing right beside me a few times for different lengths of time and thats the image that has been fixed in my head all day, and normally I can't really picture people in my mind what they look like or anything, but he is perfecty clear. I can picture him standing right next to me, the clothes he was wearing and everything...Its so real its scary. Yesterday I saw him and made eye contact with him which I do everytime I see him but I can also picture that in my head too...I thought I liked the guy I ride to work with or the guy in my volleyball class I was wrong...I don't. I just can't understand...I am gonna vent about the whole story of this guy later on...

Lately I have been more distracted than ever...I put shower gell in my hair the other day because I thought it was shampoo...and I had already washed my hair and put conditioner in it, so I totaly had to rewash my hair...I never do things like that...Also I made a date with 2 different guys for the same event...Opps...I need to decide what to do, who I want to go with...I don't even know whats up with me lately...I spent 12 hours at my moms work on Saturday trying to put a big desk and a storage cart with drawers...and the desk was easy to assemble but the storage thing was sooooo hard it took like 10 hours and we still weren't done with it...It should have been simple but I couldn't figue it out...I was thinking about other things...I am going to Idaho this weekend which should be good...I am looking forward to that...I have figured out something and I can't remember if I wrote about this before but...I push people away who get close to me..anyway I can...I have lost so many good friends by doing this maybe even true friends...I have been used and hurt soooooooooooooooooooooooo many times that I have trouble believing people are genuine...So when I think someone is getting close to me I do everything I can to push them away so they can't hurt me...I want to stop doing that but don't know how.

I have been doing really good lately...I have been going to the gym 5 days a week...Eating less...Just doing pretty good.